urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker lilith lilith 2006-04-05T03:18:15Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:18474 2006-04-05T03:18:15Z 2006-04-05T03:18:15Z whatever is on the radio DAMN I fucking hate being sick...I hate being sick and left alone even more!<br />especially when they whine and bitch that they are tired and blah blah blah and they miss being with you <br />and then they go and leave you sit alone cuz they are at the titty bar and then come home drunk <br />and try to get on top of you KNOWING YOU ARE SICK <br />then getting all pissy when you shut them down<br />and wonder why you say no urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:18274 2005-05-13T20:43:47Z 2005-05-13T20:43:47Z A precious angel slipped away<br />no one heard a cry<br />No time for mommy and daddy<br />to sing me lullabies<br />My time with you was much too short<br />I had to leave too soon<br />but love had joined us as I grew<br />inside my mommy's womb<br />it wove it's way within our hearts<br />in all our hopes and dreams<br />until the very purest love<br />became my tiny wings<br />Although I could not stay with you<br />I knew right from the start<br />that once you felt your angel's love<br />you'd keep me in your hearts<br />I'm just a little angel<br />but my time was not in vain<br />as dark clouds that surround you<br />give way to the sun<br />my precious mommy and daddy<br />you will see<br />that any heart will sing<br />if only for a moment <br />is brushed by angel's wings urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:18073 2005-05-13T20:37:53Z 2005-05-13T20:37:53Z What did you expect <br />when you knocked on my door?<br />I would be waiting <br />as always before?<br />Still trapped in my world<br />of sadness and sorrow?<br />Hating today<br />dreading tomorrow?<br />I remember the pain<br />hidden with fears<br />the cold hearted way <br />you laughed at my tears?<br />how bitterness dwelled <br />your every breath<br />Harsh words spoken<br />with no regret<br />Just when I thought <br />we were through<br />That I had finally <br />gotten over you<br />here you are<br />in my mind<br />once again<br />all the time<br />I remember how <br />you touched my soul<br />how deep it hurt <br />to let you go<br />Tears of a clown<br />lightens a frown<br />as crystal teardrops <br />stain the ground<br />My tears have dried<br />the air smells sweet<br />our souls too far <br />to ever meet<br />As you once made it<br />clear to me<br />we never were<br />nor ever will be urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:17734 2005-05-13T20:31:29Z 2005-05-13T20:31:29Z follow your heart<br />you said it easily<br />a smirk on your face<br />follow your heart<br />it rang in my ears<br />so amny times<br />that sentence<br />had flowed out of my mouth<br />to your fine awaiting ear<br />but now my heart has no direction<br />no true place for it to be<br />i shiver and shake<br />mumble some words<br />of explanation<br />your hand on my shoulder<br />someone wise once told me<br />to listen to your first true thought<br />and that's where you're meant to be<br />you turned and walked away <br />emotionless as I cried urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:17463 2005-05-13T20:28:03Z 2005-05-13T20:28:03Z follow your memories<br />they'll lead you to the truth<br />remember when<br />it isn't always happy<br />it wasn't always great<br />you forget <br />because it blends<br />you remember it well <br />or not at all<br />you care <br />but only if it's easy<br />you remember<br />but only when it's fun<br />follow your memories<br />they'll lead you to the truth urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:17260 2005-05-13T20:25:13Z 2005-05-13T20:25:13Z I wonder if you think of me <br />Somewhere in the shadows of your mind<br />Although our love could never be<br />I find myself thinking about you all the time<br />Am I in your dreams?<br />The way you always seem to wander into mine?<br />Are you longing endlessly, <br />Just like me, deep inside?<br />When the nights are dark and cold,<br />And you are lying all alone<br />Do you think of me?<br />When you feel the touch of another love<br />And when you look so far into yourself<br />Do you think of me?<br />Am I the one you're dreaming of,<br />Deep in your heart?<br />I picture you embracing me, <br />We drift away and leave the world behind<br />But it is only make believe<br />Still I wonder, do you think of me? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:16953 2005-05-13T20:24:29Z 2005-05-13T20:24:29Z Tell me this is normal<br />maybe I should do my fade away thing<br />and disappear for a while<br />This isn't how you were with them<br />I remember<br />I supported you through them<br />I remember you in love<br />this isn't it<br />you were so attached <br />so determined<br />to see them<br />So where are you now?<br />where are you when it's my turn?<br />Where's my dark knight?<br />I need to be swept away<br />I need to just know<br />you are there<br />that you're alive<br />that you feel<br />you felt once<br />I remember<br />but now you're silent<br />and my heart grows cold<br />but not close to yours urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:16795 2005-05-05T22:14:49Z 2005-05-05T22:14:49Z I open my eyes<br />I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light<br />I can't remember how<br />I can't remember why<br />I'm lying here tonight<br /><br />And I can't stand the pain<br />And I can't make it go away<br />No I can't stand the pain<br /><br />Chorus:<br />How could this happen to me<br />I made my mistakes<br />Got no where to run<br />The night goes on<br />As I'm fading away<br />I'm sick of this life<br />I just wanna scream<br />How could this happen to me<br /><br />Everybody's screaming<br />I try to make a sound but no one hears me<br />I'm slipping off the edge<br />I'm hanging by a thread<br />I wanna start this over again<br /><br />So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered<br />And I can't explain what happened<br />And I can't erase the things that I've done<br />No I can't<br /><br />How could this happen to me<br />I made my mistakes<br />Got no where to run<br />The night goes on<br />As I'm fading away<br />I'm sick of this life<br />I just wanna scream<br />How could this happen to me<br /><br />I made my mistakes<br />Got no where to run<br />The night goes on<br />As I'm fading away<br />I'm sick of this life<br />I just wanna scream<br />How could this happen to me urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:16513 2005-04-30T15:32:42Z 2005-04-30T15:32:42Z ::Have you ever?::<br />xx:self mutilated::long time ago<br />xx:attempted suicide:: i plead the 5th<br />xx:fake cried:: yeah <br />xx:used anyone:: not really<br />xx:made someone do something that you know they didnt want to do:: yeppers, but i had good intentions<br />xx:had sex with more then 1 person in 24 hours:: heh heh heh<br />xx:caught an std:: from my ex husband....nice guy huh?<br />xx:injected yourself with drugs:: not since high school<br />xx:been drunk for more then 2 days str8:: helll yeah lol<br />xx:stolen off a friend:: just quizzes like this one<br />xx:kissed a friends bf or gf behind there back:: yep<br />xx:lied to someone while looking them in the eye:: do my parents count?<br />xx:ever seen a dead body:: too many<br />xx:ever thought about killing:: yep, but they messed with my kids, so that's excuseable<br />xx:ever stayed on the computer for more then 6 hours a time:: lmao yeppers<br />xx:wanted to spit in someones face::wanted to and have done it<br /><br />::DO YOU::<br />xx:love yourself:: sometimes<br />xx:regret anything in your past:: yep<br />xx:look down on people who dont follow your scene:: i have a scene?<br />xx:masterbate alot/how often:: yep, 36 times a day lol<br />xx:like sex in the shower:: which time?<br />xx:use sex toys:: you better believe it<br />xx:look at porn:: it amuses me, the ones with a plot are the best lmao<br />xx:think there is a god:: i believe there is a higher power<br />xx:think you are above others: above some people who will remain nameless, but they know who they are<br /><br />::WOULD YOU::<br />xx:hurt an animal or child:: there was that one cat, but it was a mercy killing<br />xx:have sex with someone on the first date:: i plead the 5th<br />xx:have unprotected sex:: i have 2 kids what do you think?<br />xx:adopt a child:: yes<br />xx:have sex with someone just because they are famous:: nope<br />xx:have sex with someone for money:: nope<br />xx:have a 3some:: sure<br />xx:have anal sex:: depends on my mood<br /><br />::ARE YOU::<br /><br />xx:happy with your current situation in life:: yes and no<br />xx:genrally happy most of the time:: sure why not<br />xx:sexualy active at the moment:: at this second no, but later tonight is another story<br />xx:looking forward to the future:: you betcha<br />xx:a good friend to have:: some people don't think so, because i have low tolerance for stupidity<br />xx:a good partner to have:: i like to think so<br /><br />::DO YOU::<br />xx:like snuggling:: hell yeah, but if i am sleeping, snuggle at your own risk<br />xx:like rain:: prefer thunderstorms in the evening<br />xx:like the ocean::yep <br />xx:believe in fate:: yes<br />\xx:believe in karma:: oh yeah<br />xx:practice what you preach:: i try to<br />xx:believe in magic:: yes<br />xx:believe in yourself:: not always<br />xx:believe in your friends:: yes<br />xx:trust many people?:: the less people you trust, the less chance you have to get hurt<br />xx:trust yourself:: not always<br />xx:get hurt easily:: not really<br />xx:get mad easily:: i'm irish lol so yeah<br />xx:hold grudges:: depends on what was done<br />xx:give people second chances:: rarely <br />xx:want a family 1 day:: already have one<br /><br />::RANDOMS::<br />xx:fave drink:: starbucks mocha mint frapppuccino i spelled that wrong oh well lol<br />xx:fave food:: the kind you eat?<br />xx:bi sexual:: i prefer straight with a curve and a few kinks<br />xx:pierceings:: ears twice and tongue....so far<br />xx:current hair:: short<br />xx:current clothes:: khakis and preppy shirt<br />xx:current mood:: sick and crabby<br />xx:current crush:: no need for one, unless you count peter steele lol<br />xx:current annoyance:: my ex<br />xx:current book:: element encyclopedia of 5000 spells<br />xx:best place to hang:: just moved here so don't know yet<br />xx:best movie:: moulin rouge, the green mile, i am sam, i watch too many movies<br />xx:best band:: Rasputina<br />xx:best song:: angel standing by, from jewel<br />xx:fave brand of clothes:: the ones that fit?<br />xx:fave shoes:: that I have? my platform combat boots<br />xx:Whats your thought right now:: did the landlord turn off the heat again?! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:16299 2005-04-11T14:51:22Z 2005-04-11T14:51:22Z It Doesn't Matter--Alison Krauss not even a phone call from my own parents to say congrats you made it to 26!<br />or to say dammit you're still alive<br />my 16th birthday, i locked myself in my room and cried, my first boyfriend was going to basic training and decided he didn't want me to wait 6 weeks for him so he dumped me on my 16th birthday<br />my 17th birthday i stormed out of the house and ruined it for my mom, or so they said <br />that was the day my parents told me they were getting divorced<br />i really don't remember my 18th birthday to be honest, i was living at my dad's, after my mom had me arrested, and i don't think i even got a card from them<br />my 19th birthday, i was pregnant, and larry was the one that had the party for me<br />my 21st birthday was completely forgotten, but to be honest, i really didn't care.....my grandfather went in to have open heart surgery 2 days before, and everyone was worried about him, including me <br />i spent my 21st bd getting drunk in a gay bar in my hometown, so my husband at the time wouldn't beat my ass.....can't go home with a guy from the bar if they already have a boyfriend now can i?<br />and even though my birthday isn't until tomorrow, they have yet to return any messages i have left for them, i have given them my work and personal schedule so that i might be able to possibly get to at least talk to my kids on my birthday, but there is nothing. only silence. they don't know yet that i am moving up to mn with my drew, and i am not sure if i should even bother to tell them, all they will do is ignore me there too. I know this sounds like i am overreacting but i seriously feel like if i died tonight the only thing that would be bothering them is what to do with my stuff and the cost of a funeral<br />they give 2 shits if i am alive or dead, i know my drew loves me and would miss me, but sometimes i wonder what the point of even living anymore is.....i don't expect drew to understand exactly where i am coming from, seeing as he does not have any children of his own, but i think dru might understand, but then again she still has her little boy.....<br />i am done ranting now, sorry for wasting everyone's time <br />i am just done....... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:15980 2005-04-11T14:05:13Z 2005-04-11T14:05:13Z <table style="font-family : Arial, Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; border-collapse: collapse; border: 1px solid black;" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="2" align="center"><form action="http://memegen.net/viewmeme.pl?meme=1074766802" method="POST"><tr><th colspan="2" bgcolor="#000000"><font color="#DDDD88">The No-Hassle Day Planner for the Clinically Insane by <a href="http://www.livejournal.com/~milestogo13/info"><font color="#DDDD88">MilesToGo13</font></a></font></th></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Username</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;"><input type="text" name="armored_username" value="lilithcumsucker" size="20"></span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">This morning, you should...</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">set your bed on fire, to exorcise the evil demon spirits that made you dream about doing bad things, like setting your bed on fire.</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Then, after lunch...</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">have an in-depth discussion of Marxism and its effects on the global macro-economy with a lamp post.</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Dinner will consist of...</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">three fifths of Jack, a pack of smokes, and some Valium.</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Afterwards, you set off into the evening to...</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">scream at random people that the sky is falling, shortly before you hit them over the head with a mallet.</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">At the height of your madness, you will call</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">vampyredrusilla</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">And the two of you will proceed to...</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">go to a club and have a contest to see who can lick the most unwitting strangers by dawn.</span></td></tr><input type="hidden" name="un" value="MilesToGo13"><input type="hidden" name="meme" value="1074766802"><tr><td colspan="2" align="center" bgcolor="#000000"><input type="submit" value="Fill Out Your Answers and Try it!"></td></tr><tr><td colspan="2" align="center" bgcolor="#000000"><font size="-1" color="#FFFFFF"><a href="http://memegen.net/"><font color="#DDDD88">Quiz created with MemeGen</font></a>!</font></td></tr></form></table> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:15812 2005-04-07T18:10:29Z 2005-04-07T18:10:29Z whiskey lullabye----allison krauss and brad paisley so i have the day off with pay on tuesday, drew is comin saturday to be with me and we got a room in the dells, almost the makings of a perfect birthday, then i talked to my dad yesterday and find out he has 65 percent of his heart NOT functioning. I was thinking of going up there to spend time with him and my kids, but there isn't enough time in the weekend, and i can't get a hold of my parents to let them know i am not coming, and to make other arrangements, like if they would or could come down this way, at least part way, for a few hours so i can spend some time with them and my kids but my dad won't even return my calls........like i said, happy birthday to me......<br />yeah right<br />why do my parents have to find a way to ruin what should be a good day for me EVERY TIME?<br />they refused to let me see the kids on mother's day because according to them if i can't find a way up there i must not love my kids very much, they told me this last easter that they couldn't afford to drive down here so i could spend time with my kids, but then i find out they drove to IOWA with my kids, which is a violation of court order, to see my brother. They can't afford to stop in even on the way to dubuque, when i live in the madison area, i am right on the way. I don't know which part is worse, them refusing to let me see my kids, or them lying to me to keep the kids from me. If they really loved me like i thought parents were supposed to love their kids, they wouldn't do this shit to me over and over again, and if i didn't love my children like they accuse me of not loving them, it wouldn't be killing me the way this is, every time they do this shit <br /><br />as i sit here and think back on the 26 years i have been alive, i cannot say my parents were that terrible, i was never molested, beaten, unless i deserved it, <br />they were at all my soccer games, my dance recitals, school plays, concerts, and they were there for my graduation and when both of my children were born<br />but i cannot remember a single time that they told me they were proud of me, or that i made them happy or that i did a good job, or that they love me<br /><br />happy birthday to me........fuck birthdays, who needs them urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:15367 2005-04-07T05:02:36Z 2005-04-07T05:02:36Z <table align="center" border="1" bordercolor="black" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="4" width="200px"><tr><td bgcolor="#ffcccc" align="center"><font style="color:black; font-size:18pt;">How to make a orbwhore</font></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="white"><font style="color:black; font-size:12pt;"><b>Ingredients:</b><br><br />1 part success<br><br />5 parts courage<br><br />1 part </font></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="#ffffcc"><font style="color:black; font-size:12pt;"><b>Method:</b><br>Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of sadness</font></td></tr></table><div align="center"><br /><br><form method="POST" action="http://www.go-quiz.com/cocktail/cocktail.php">Username:<input name="uname"><br><input type="submit" value="How do you make a &#39;you&#39;?"><br><br /></form><a href="http://www.go-quiz.com/cocktail/cocktail.php">Personality cocktail</a><br>From <a href="http://www.go-quiz.com">Go-Quiz.com</a></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:15155 2005-04-07T04:59:13Z 2005-04-07T04:59:13Z <table align="center" border="1" bordercolor="black" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="4" width="200px"><tr><td bgcolor="#ffcccc" align="center"><font style="color:black; font-size:18pt;">How to make a vampyredrusilla</font></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="white"><font style="color:black; font-size:12pt;"><b>Ingredients:</b><br><br />5 parts jealousy<br><br />1 part ambition<br><br />5 parts energy</font></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="#ffffcc"><font style="color:black; font-size:12pt;"><b>Method:</b><br>Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of wisdom</font></td></tr></table><div align="center"><br /><br><form method="POST" action="http://www.go-quiz.com/cocktail/cocktail.php">Username:<input name="uname"><br><input type="submit" value="How do you make a &#39;you&#39;?"><br><br /></form><a href="http://www.go-quiz.com/cocktail/cocktail.php">Personality cocktail</a><br>From <a href="http://www.go-quiz.com">Go-Quiz.com</a></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:14949 2005-04-07T04:56:41Z 2005-04-07T04:56:41Z <table align="center" border="1" bordercolor="black" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="4" width="200px"><tr><td bgcolor="#ffcccc" align="center"><font style="color:black; font-size:18pt;">How to make a tattooed_guy21</font></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="white"><font style="color:black; font-size:12pt;"><b>Ingredients:</b><br><br />5 parts anger<br><br />1 part crazyiness<br><br />1 part instinct</font></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="#ffffcc"><font style="color:black; font-size:12pt;"><b>Method:</b><br>Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of lustfulness</font></td></tr></table><div align="center"><br /><br><form method="POST" action="http://www.go-quiz.com/cocktail/cocktail.php">Username:<input name="uname"><br><input type="submit" value="How do you make a &#39;you&#39;?"><br><br /></form><a href="http://www.go-quiz.com/cocktail/cocktail.php">Personality cocktail</a><br>From <a href="http://www.go-quiz.com">Go-Quiz.com</a></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:14680 2005-04-07T04:51:29Z 2005-04-07T04:51:29Z <table align="center" border="1" bordercolor="black" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="4" width="200px"><tr><td bgcolor="#ffcccc" align="center"><font style="color:black; font-size:18pt;">How to make a christian_stunder</font></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="white"><font style="color:black; font-size:12pt;"><b>Ingredients:</b><br><br />1 part anger<br><br />5 parts self-sufficiency<br><br />3 parts leadership</font></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="#ffffcc"><font style="color:black; font-size:12pt;"><b>Method:</b><br>Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add caring to taste! Do not overindulge!</font></td></tr></table><div align="center"><br /><br><form method="POST" action="http://www.go-quiz.com/cocktail/cocktail.php">Username:<input name="uname"><br><input type="submit" value="How do you make a &#39;you&#39;?"><br><br /></form><a href="http://www.go-quiz.com/cocktail/cocktail.php">Personality cocktail</a><br>From <a href="http://www.go-quiz.com">Go-Quiz.com</a></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:14466 2005-04-07T04:50:42Z 2005-04-07T04:50:42Z <table align="center" border="1" bordercolor="black" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="4" width="200px"><tr><td bgcolor="#ffcccc" align="center"><font style="color:black; font-size:18pt;">How to make a xian_stunder</font></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="white"><font style="color:black; font-size:12pt;"><b>Ingredients:</b><br><br />5 parts intelligence<br><br />3 parts self-sufficiency<br><br />3 parts instinct</font></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="#ffffcc"><font style="color:black; font-size:12pt;"><b>Method:</b><br>Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of emotion</font></td></tr></table><div align="center"><br /><br><form method="POST" action="http://www.go-quiz.com/cocktail/cocktail.php">Username:<input name="uname"><br><input type="submit" value="How do you make a &#39;you&#39;?"><br><br /></form><a href="http://www.go-quiz.com/cocktail/cocktail.php">Personality cocktail</a><br>From <a href="http://www.go-quiz.com">Go-Quiz.com</a></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:14202 2005-04-07T03:57:27Z 2005-04-07T03:57:27Z <table align="center" border="1" bordercolor="black" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="4" width="200px"><tr><td bgcolor="#ffcccc" align="center"><font style="color:black; font-size:18pt;">How to make a tetra_c_99</font></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="white"><font style="color:black; font-size:12pt;"><b>Ingredients:</b><br><br />3 parts friendliness<br><br />1 part silliness<br><br />3 parts instinct</font></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="#ffffcc"><font style="color:black; font-size:12pt;"><b>Method:</b><br>Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Serve with a slice of sadness and a pinch of salt. Yum!</font></td></tr></table><div align="center"><br /><br><form method="POST" action="http://www.go-quiz.com/cocktail/cocktail.php">Username:<input name="uname"><br><input type="submit" value="How do you make a &#39;you&#39;?"><br><br /></form><a href="http://www.go-quiz.com/cocktail/cocktail.php">Personality cocktail</a><br>From <a href="http://www.go-quiz.com">Go-Quiz.com</a></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:14005 2005-04-07T03:56:08Z 2005-04-07T03:56:08Z ok so apparently i am this evil person or whatever, i had a sucky night at work, i got called a fuckin idiot because i called on a lead from 2003 and was told the person i called has been dead for 8 years<br />like i am supposed to know that first of all, and second how can a dead person sponsor the shriners in 2003 if they have been dead for 8 years?<br />then i had a sponsor from 2004 hang up on me i almost cried, it was a sale for over 250 bucks dammit urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:13769 2005-04-06T16:42:13Z 2005-04-06T16:42:13Z <table style="font-family : Arial, Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; border-collapse: collapse; border: 1px solid black;" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="2" align="center"><form action="http://memegen.net/viewmeme.pl?meme=1074699492" method="POST"><tr><th colspan="2" bgcolor="#000000"><font color="#DDDD88">Your L/J Haunted House Trip by damianarose</font></th></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">username</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;"><input type="text" name="armored_username" value="lilithcumsucker" size="20"></span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Choose one</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;"><select name="Choose one"><option>ghost<option>phantom<option>poltergeist<option selected="SELECTED">spirit<option>shade<option>soul</select></span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Who willing goes with you</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">vampyredrusilla</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Who grips your hand the whole time</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">orbwhore</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Who pisses themselves</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">xian_stunder</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Who picks a fight with the guy who plays Jason</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">ashe_darkthorne</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Who pulls you into the dark to make out with you</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">weirdcookie</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Who screams themseleves hoarse</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">jezrial</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Who laughs hysterically and has to be escorted out</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">orbwhore</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Who really enjoys themselves</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">xian_stunder</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Who works there and got you comp tickets</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">weirdcookie</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Friend who is jealous cause the Dracula is flirtin</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">ashe_darkthorne</span></td></tr><input type="hidden" name="un" value="damianarose"><input type="hidden" name="meme" value="1074699492"><tr><td colspan="2" align="center" bgcolor="#000000"><input type="submit" value="Fill Out Your Answers and Try it!"></td></tr><tr><td colspan="2" align="center" bgcolor="#000000"><font size="-1" color="#FFFFFF"><a href="http://memegen.net/"><font color="#DDDD88">Quiz created with MemeGen</font></a>!</font></td></tr></form></table> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:13319 2005-04-06T16:17:15Z 2005-04-06T16:17:15Z ok so apparently i am banned from the raddy shows over some stupid bullshit that i didn't have anything to do with chris is being an asshole no big suprise there work sucks ass no suprise there either <br />i have until the end of the month to get out of chris' but i am plannin on movin in with my drew anyways, so no big worries there, i need to get my car fixed which is being a bitch and a half, and i just hate everything right now dammit urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:13105 2005-04-06T15:56:56Z 2005-04-06T15:56:56Z <div align="center" style="font-family: Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; 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font-weight:bold;" align="left" valign="middle">jezrial</td></tr><tr bgcolor="#336699"><td align="left" valign="middle" style="color: #FFFFFF;">Wants to lick hot chocolate off you're body:</td><td style="color: #FFFFFF; font-weight:bold;" align="left" valign="middle">orbwhore</td></tr><tr bgcolor="#336699"><td align="left" valign="middle" style="color: #FFFFFF;">Wonders how good you are in bed:</td><td style="color: #FFFFFF; font-weight:bold;" align="left" valign="middle">jezrial</td></tr><tr bgcolor="#336699"><td align="left" valign="middle" style="color: #FFFFFF;">Wishes you would screw him/her on the spot:</td><td style="color: #FFFFFF; font-weight:bold;" align="left" valign="middle">xian_stunder</td></tr><tr bgcolor="#336699"><td align="left" valign="middle" style="color: #FFFFFF;">Is romatically in love with you:</td><td style="color: #FFFFFF; font-weight:bold;" align="left" valign="middle">ashe_darkthorne</td></tr><tr bgcolor="#336699"><td align="left" valign="middle" style="color: #FFFFFF;">Wishes you were gay so he/she could love you better:</td><td style="color: #FFFFFF; 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Add a little sadness if desired!</font></td></tr></table><div align="center"><br /><br><form method="POST" action="http://www.go-quiz.com/cocktail/cocktail.php">Username:<input name="uname"><br><input type="submit" value="How do you make a &#39;you&#39;?"><br><br /></form><a href="http://www.go-quiz.com/cocktail/cocktail.php">Personality cocktail</a><br>From <a href="http://www.go-quiz.com">Go-Quiz.com</a></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:12698 2005-04-04T15:30:09Z 2005-04-04T15:30:09Z <table border="1" bordercolor="black" cellspacing="0" width="250px"><tr><td align="center" bgcolor="black"><font style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 14pt; color: white">freaky may explode without warning</font></td></tr><tr><td align="center" bgcolor="red"><font style="font-family: wingdings; font-size: 64pt; color: black;">M</font><br><font style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 32pt; color: black;">EXPLOSIVE</font></td></tr></table><br><form method="POST" action="http://www.go-quiz.com/warning-label/warning-label.php">Username:<input name="uname"><input type="submit" value="Get your warning label"><br><br /></form>From <a href="http://www.go-quiz.com">Go-Quiz.com</a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilithcumsucker:12541 2005-04-04T15:29:22Z 2005-04-04T15:29:22Z <table border="5" bordercolor="#66cccc" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="12" width="300px"><tr><td bgcolor="white" align="center"><font style="font-family: webdings; font-size: 42pt; color: black;">"</font><font style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 32pt; color: black;">ACHTUNG</font><font style="font-family: webdings; font-size: 42pt; color: black;">!</font></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#66cccc" align="center"><font style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 16pt; color: black;">jezrial may actually be a spider-human hybrid</td></tr></table><br><form method="POST" action="http://www.go-quiz.com/warning-label/warning-label.php">Username:<input name="uname"><input type="submit" value="Get your warning label"><br><br /></form>From <a href="http://www.go-quiz.com">Go-Quiz.com</a></font>